Mind and Body Connection

You can feel the effects in every part of your body if you let it go on long enough:

 I feel it in my jaw, as I always had to physically silence myself by clenching it, even as a child- now shown in the development of TMJ. 

I feel it when I feel anxious and my throat and chest burn, and my hand shakes as though even my body knows I cannot handle it. 

I feel it when I regress back into the me who didn’t want to eat or just wanted to live in her dream world where everything was safe.

I notice it when I try something new and my mouth becomes drier than the Sahara desert and I feel as though I can not speak.

I see it in the way my body feels much older than I truly am- as though it has gone through hundreds of years of living when yet it only has been going for 21 years. 

I know it when my friends can keep going for days on end but I get tired and overwhelmed after just a few hours of work. Though we are the same age and should reasonably be equally energized, we are not.

I feel it when I am near my family and my throat and chest burn- more fiercely than any burn ever has.  

I feel it in my body when I have been going for too long and my body wants me to stop, the dizziness, like I had just gotten off a carnival ride. 

I feel it in my stiffness, my body stiff as though expecting to get hit all over, yet nothing happens, nothing ever will. 

I feel it in the headaches like I have been staring at a computer screen without blinking for days on end. 

Each shows to myself that I need to stop just for a moment. 

To breathe. 

To pause.

To relax.